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psychofunk · 05-10-2003, 01:38 AM

I have to appologize to you guys for my earlier post. My first nature can be very evil, and I am the type that would much rather fight than argue, so being behind this keyboard can be very fustrating for me. It is not necessary to insult you to get my point accross to those that may be on the outside looking in.

The bottom line to any passerby is that for ME, I spent years doing wrong and living an evil life. In the best of those times filled with money, women, drugs, guns and friends willing to do whatever for me and me likewise, they fall short of the true happiness that I have felt since then. I finally leaned what high on life meant.

That is not to say that shit does'nt happen and that I don't trip when money falls short or that I don't still wanna **** every woman on the planet but now I don't have to react on those things. I have a second thought now that involves not screwing other people for my own personal gain.

I used to think that I needed no one and the reality of that is that is a hard path to walk, 15 years of that can make any man tired. Wearing that invincible mask 24/7/365 can beat you down. I am a chicano so I have the whole "man" thing deeply ingrained into me. On top of it I grew up catholic so I was taught that god was up in the sky waiting for me to mess up so that he could blast my ass with a lightning bolt, so for me the whole god thing was not easy pill to swallow.

To make a long story short after this that and the other and bit of living right and trying new things I came to realize that something that I once called luck, was not luck but God working in my life, loving and caring for me no matter how bad I was. Truely there for me! He did'nt give me a million dollars (good thing too, because I would have done a Tony Montana) but he took care of me. Things like going left instead of right (not literally) because of a feeling I got, where the people I would have been with shot someone or got shot by someone or arrested or all sorts of things. I have even had bullets wizz by me and then I heard the bang! He did not condone what I was doing but he continued to love me and that alone is worth my believing. On top of that I am the happiest I have ever been in my life no matter the situation I have myself in.

I am a Christian (just for clarification) and I am not saying take my word for it, what I am saying is don't listen to anyone's opinion. Pick up a bible and go to a church bible study somewhere, learn and make your own decision based on your own experience.

05-10-2003, 01:38 AM	#26
psychofunk Cooling Savant Join Date: Jan 2003 Location: Los Angeles Posts: 365	I have to appologize to you guys for my earlier post. My first nature can be very evil, and I am the type that would much rather fight than argue, so being behind this keyboard can be very fustrating for me. It is not necessary to insult you to get my point accross to those that may be on the outside looking in. The bottom line to any passerby is that for ME, I spent years doing wrong and living an evil life. In the best of those times filled with money, women, drugs, guns and friends willing to do whatever for me and me likewise, they fall short of the true happiness that I have felt since then. I finally leaned what high on life meant. That is not to say that shit does'nt happen and that I don't trip when money falls short or that I don't still wanna **** every woman on the planet but now I don't have to react on those things. I have a second thought now that involves not screwing other people for my own personal gain. I used to think that I needed no one and the reality of that is that is a hard path to walk, 15 years of that can make any man tired. Wearing that invincible mask 24/7/365 can beat you down. I am a chicano so I have the whole "man" thing deeply ingrained into me. On top of it I grew up catholic so I was taught that god was up in the sky waiting for me to mess up so that he could blast my ass with a lightning bolt, so for me the whole god thing was not easy pill to swallow. To make a long story short after this that and the other and bit of living right and trying new things I came to realize that something that I once called luck, was not luck but God working in my life, loving and caring for me no matter how bad I was. Truely there for me! He did'nt give me a million dollars (good thing too, because I would have done a Tony Montana) but he took care of me. Things like going left instead of right (not literally) because of a feeling I got, where the people I would have been with shot someone or got shot by someone or arrested or all sorts of things. I have even had bullets wizz by me and then I heard the bang! He did not condone what I was doing but he continued to love me and that alone is worth my believing. On top of that I am the happiest I have ever been in my life no matter the situation I have myself in. I am a Christian (just for clarification) and I am not saying take my word for it, what I am saying is don't listen to anyone's opinion. Pick up a bible and go to a church bible study somewhere, learn and make your own decision based on your own experience. Last edited by psychofunk; 05-10-2003 at 05:05 PM.